If you knew me at all growing up you would be shocked that I'm part of this "Fat Girl" club! I was extremely active, playing sports, exercising after school, eating healthy, and obsessive about my weight. My mother used to always say, "You don't want to be fat, like me" and I didn't. So, how did I become a fat girl?
I can't blame it on anyone but myself. I'm 32 years old and I can't even blame it on having a kid, cause that hasn't happened. In high school I weighed about 160 at 5'10 and wore and 9/10T. I was extremely healthy and extremely fit. I ran cross country, played basketball, and softball and I played out side after homework. I was very active and even a little obsessed with my weight, fearing that if I didn't obsess over it I would end up a FAT GIRL. I don't expect to look as I did in high school but 256! Yes, 256 is what I weighed in at on January 1, 2012. Not to mention, last year I hit an all time high of 271 - YIKES! Dont' tell anyone though, it's a secret.
So, I freaked out. How did I get so FREAKIN FAT?!?!?!?! Last year I bought a gym membership that I didn't use nearly enough. Although I did lose a little bit of that baby fat and went from 271 to 245 for a total weight loss of 26. Whaa whaa whaa... really? That's all I could do? I gained some back over the holidays and decided, like everyone else, I'm really going to do it this year. Although, I mean it!
My first plan of action to make this happen was getting help. I mean, I really need it. I have an addiction to food and when I was younger and had the time to be active all day. I could get away with things, I suppose, or maybe I was so afraid during my insecure years of being the fat girl at school that I went crazy trying to avoid that label. I don't have five hours a day to play sports and go roller blading or jogging anymore. I'm lucky if I get an hour and a half to myself. Plus, I'm a big girl and I have to work! You can't by Prada with nada.
So, my help is with my life coach, Cindy. She is a trainer at my gym and a professional fit girl. I mean, this woman is super fit and not in that gross body builder way, but in the beautiful yet strong feminine kind of way. I used my Christmas bonus this year to employ her services, which are already paying off. Just in the 4 weeks that I've started with her I went from 256.6 to 244.6. Oh yeah! 12 pounds!!! No detoxing, starving myself, and being at the gym for 2 or 3 hours. My goal is only 1.5 pounds a week. To ensure that I stick to this life style change, I paid for 5 months of coaching up front. I'm some what of a "cheap skate, beef skate", so it was a little heart wrenching to let money go, but obviously I'm doing something wrong and I need the accountability.
Tracking my food has been the biggest challenge for me. I've been doing it for the last month and let me tell you... a food tracker doesn't lie. I had no idea how much this helped until I started implementing it into my life. I use a free app called MyPlate by Livestrong. It's available to Iphone, Ipad, and Android users. You can also create an account at http://www.livestrong.com/myplate. I quickly realised why I was gaining weight and not losing even when working out. I was over consuming - BIG TIME! Last Sunday I fell off and ate like the old self. I consumed over 4000 calories. I didn't stuff myself, but I made terrible choices and nothing made me feel satisfied or full. Fast food is my biggest weakness, solely because of the convenience. My daily intake right now is only 1867... so what a F-up! But it made me realise really quick why I was becoming such a Fatty.
This year is to a new me... a healthier, more fit, happier me!
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| At the gym... That tum tum has got to go! |
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